Desire Of My Soul

Prayer Requests May-June 2024: Watchmen Before the Throne

A group of fellow believers unite in prayer as one in our Messiah Jesus to stand in the gap before the throne for others.


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Please join us before our King . . .


The latest prayer needs: listed below.

Email your prayer requests:


It’s time. Let the battle commence—again: intercessory prayer for those hurting, confused, lost, seeking, or caught in the enemy’s strongholds. We seek God’s face, His will, His direction for His namesake and glory.


I waited expectantly, patiently for the Lord until He reached down to me and heard my cry. —Psalm 40:1


May-June 2024


Stand firm. The enemy is on the prowl sowing chaos and lies—but God is on the throne in all His might and holiness.




#1. Jamie P.

Psalm 46:7

The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.

My sweet cousin Jamie is back in the hospital today after a reaction to his treatment for stage 4 lung and liver cancer. What this means going forward is uncertain. El Emunah, Faithful God, be glorified in this. We bow down to you, to your power and majesty. Please do what you do so wonderfully—carry Jamie in your arms and make your presence known like never before. Guide this situation with your mighty, merciful, loving, gentle, healing hand and gift of life.


#2. Toni.

Psalm 27:5

For he will hide me in his shelter in the day of trouble; he will conceal me under the cover of his tent . . .

Toni is on oxygen all the time and experiencing other challenging health issues. El Shaddai, our Almighty, All-Sufficient God, our Precious King, please ease her breathing, shelter her beneath your wings, and lead the way so she can get her residence in order after the daunting move.


#3. Sonia.

Psalm 33:20-21

Our soul waits for the Lord; He is our help and our shield, for our heart shall rejoice in Him because we have trusted in His holy name.

Our precious, senior-citizen sister in the Lord is having pain in both shoulders, especially the left. Loving Lord, you are Haggo’el, our Redeemer. Please continue to watch over your daughter Sonia, stretch out your mighty wings, shielding and embracing her as you call forth healing and medical wisdom where needed. Bless her sleep and energize her body to fulfill the ministry anointing you’ve set upon her.


#4. Cliff.

2 Peter 3:9

The Lord is not slack concerning His promise, as some count slackness, but is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any should perish but that all should come to repentance.

Facing health difficulties, Cliff, a 70-something nonbeliever, is seeking God’s help. Lord, may you arise and show Cliff the beauty of your redemptive plan—the truth, life, and way found only in Jesus, our Messiah.


#5. Brian Morse.

Jeremiah 31:3

The Lord appeared to him from far away. I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you.

From mid-April, some of us were called to pray for Brian who has a stage 4 inoperable lung cancer. May God’s immeasurable mercy and lovingkindness draw Brian to the Lord and bring him strength and peace—and eternal life in our Messiah.


#6. Matt.

Matthew 11:28-30

Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.

My 40-year-old, bipolar nephew with some emotional issues when not on meds is in a city jail and just had another sentence added on. Our hearts are deeply broken because he’s out of state and not easy for us to visit. Abba, we seek your face and direction. And we ask for your intervention, ushering in solid Bible studies that honor our Messiah. Please bless Matt with your tangible presence for companionship, learning, spiritual maturing, as well as healing and deliverance in mind, body, and soul.


#7. Que.

Psalm 84:11

For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestows favor and honor; no good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless.

A young believer in the Lord, Que and his family have embarked on a catering/food-truck business. They’re in the midst of changing residences, seeking the Lord’s guidance, provisions, and favor on all that they do. Holy King, you are the Light of the world. Shine your light from heaven onto Que and his family, Round up clients from all directions to enjoy and be blessed by Que’s yummy cooking. And cover Que and his family with your Word, giving them a hunger and thirst for you and your ways always. In Jesus’s sweet, glorious name.


#8. Davida.

Psalm 145:18

The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth.

A lovely Jewish woman who is suffering with a frozen vocal cord. Also, she struggles believing in God, but when I (led by God) encouraged her to read Psalms, she said she would.

Go’el Yisrael, Redeemer of Israel, our God, our King, transform Davida. Release her vocal cord. Bind the enemy’s lies and influence. Give her new spiritual lenses to see you, know you, believe in you, and grow in you and your Word. Make the psalms come alive for her. And help her soul recognize and walk in our Messiah Yeshua/Jesus.


#9. Ruth.

Psalm 143:8

Let me hear in the morning of your steadfast love, for in you I trust.Make me know the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.

Another wonderful Jewish woman who studies Torah. Ruth needs healing for her back (she’s in physical therapy)and for her hubby’s health—he’s battling prostate cancer and diabetes. The LORD is mighty, glorious is His name. May He speak to Ruth and her husband, drawing them closer to Him, revealing Himself, and his relentless love shown through Yeshua (Jesus) our Messiah.


#10. J.

Isaiah 46:4

Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.

A bright Jewish woman who studies Torah but sees God as energy running in the background of life. Lord of Israel, please step forth in J’s life, imparting heightened and deepened understanding and faith for her to see and know that you are ever present, up close and personal, into the details, and that your Word is true, faithful, immovable. And that you are manifested in Yeshua who came up from within you.


#11. Caroline B.’s Family.

Psalm 34:18

The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

We prayed in April for Caroline who was at eternity’s door. She has since crossed that threshold . . . but now her family needs prayer for comfort and salvation that can only be found in our Messiah and King, Jesus.


#12. Leslie.

Philippians 1:9-10

And it is my prayer that your love may abound more and more, with knowledge and all discernment, so that you may approve what is excellent, and so be pure and blameless for the day of Christ.

As this dear sister in the Lord sits obediently before our King, she is waiting for His direction, timing, provisions for her ministry calling. Her heart’s desire is to please Him in all that she does. Adonai Tsuri v’go’ali, Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer, hear the cry of your daughter’s heart, woo her to your secret place and continue to reveal in your time and way what she’s to do along each step of her ministry journey.


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Prayer Requests April 2024: Watchmen Before the Throne

A group of fellow believers unite in prayer as one in our Messiah Jesus to stand in the gap before the throne for others.


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Join us before our King . . .


The latest prayer needs are listed below.

Email your prayer requests:


It’s time. Let the battle commence: intercessory prayer for those hurting, confused, lost, seeking, or caught in the enemy’s traps. We seek God’s face, His will, His direction for His namesake and glory.


I waited expectantly, patiently for the Lord until He reached down to me and heard my cry. —Psalm 40:1


APRIL 2024


Stand firm. The enemy is on the prowl sowing chaos and lies—but God is on the throne in all His might and holiness.






We prayed Psalm 91:14-16’s promises over J.B. God has been restoring her! May He continue to strengthen her, deliver her, honor her, and satisfy her heart’s desire before Him.



His love endures forever! (Psalm 136). Some of us had received a 9-1-1 call-to-prayer for my granddaughter Kat whose ovarian cyst burst this past week. She was in terrible pain and at the ER. But God’s love and mercy covered her. She is doing much better, resting a lot, and doesn’t need the pain meds the way she did at the beginning. Please keep her in your prayers for complete healing. Thank you kindly.


#1. Brian S.

Psalm 119:105

Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.

Traveling mercies as Brian leaves for a first-time, work-related trip to the Philippines. May God’s hand cover him throughout his journeys and with God’s Word to guide his decisions on all project work. We also pray for the Lord’s protection over his family while he’s gone.


#2. Jamie P.

Exodus 13:21

By day the Lord went ahead of them in a pillar of cloud to guide them on their way and by night in a pillar of fire to give them light, so they could travel by day or night.

My cousin Jamie has reached a decision-making point in his treatment plan for stage 4 lung and liver cancer. May the Lord mightily show His hand and direction that’s as clear to Jamie as that pillar of cloud and fire were in guiding Israel through their wilderness journey. Lord, we seek your healing words, mercy, and will.


#3. Shannon’s Mom & Sister

Isaiah 61:2b

Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

When scary challenges surround us . . . we need God’s heaven-earth ladder to raise us up. Shannon’s mom just had surgery for her stage 4 breast cancer (went well, Praise God!) but Shannon also just learned her step-sister has stage 4 cancer. Both cancer patients have added complicated health issues. May our Mighty King breathe strength within all three of these women—and may His mercies and healing reign over them.


#4. Roger

Isaiah 58:8

Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the Lord will be your rear guard.

Next week Roger is having eye surgery. His cataract is so bad that it has caused additional issues in his one eye. They believe the surgery should help correct it. May Roger find complete healing and restful recovery under the wings of our Lord, our mighty king.


#5. Joe, Jim & Dylan

Psalm 34:17

When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears
and delivers them out of all their troubles.

Three separate prayer requests—but each needing God’s hand to usher in compassion and healing on physical, emotional, and spiritual levels. Joe’s lame leg and health have made life difficult. Meanwhile Jim’s deep mourning for his son who died last September has overtaken him. And Dylan’s life and family are topsy-turvy, needing God’s deliverance, calm, and salvation.


#6. Amir/Miriam Tsarfati & Family

Psalm 138:7

Though I walk in the midst of trouble, you preserve my life; you stretch out your hand against the wrath of my enemies, and your right hand delivers me.

With the escalation of war in Israel, Behold Israel’s Amir and his wife Miriam now have their three adult children—two sons and a daughter—serving in the IDF. May God’s grace be shed upon them at every turn and may He comfort Miriam/Amir and their family, strengthening their faith and love as they look to our Messiah.


#7. Michael

2 Corinthians 10:4

The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds.

Ongoing prayer for 25-year-old Michael who needs deliverance and spiritual, physical, and emotional healing. As a child, he had the joy of the Lord–but from his teens onward, chronic illnesses have stirred up anger and depression. Glorious, Merciful King, please set this captive free to worship you again and walk in your ways.


#8. K.P.

Matthew 11:28

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

K.P. is a believer, working hard to care for his wife and four children. But he needs Adonai to speak freedom from patterned behavior—smoking and occasional binge drinking—and to give K.P. rest from life’s stresses and burdens.


#9. Marian/Gene, Eleanor, Ellie

Psalm 103:13

As a father shows compassion to his children, so the Lord shows compassion to those who fear him.

Three separate requests but family members. My aunt/uncle (Marian & Gene) are in their mid 80s and building a new home—quite the undertaking for their age. Meanwhile my other aunt in her later 80s, Eleanor, is widowed, has health issues, and needs God’s wisdom on if/when she should sell her home and move in with family. Also her granddaughter Ellie is in her early 20s and has back issues. May the Lord make His presence known in all these situations, bearing healing, direction, provision, protection, and abundant blessings from His hand.


#10. Caroline B.

Psalm 107:19-20

Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress. He sent out His word and healed them; He rescued them from the grave.

A 70-something Caroline is in dire straits, health wise. And she and her family need salvation through our Messiah, Jesus. Recently, Caroline was taken to the hospital and put on a ventilator—and then the doctors discovered a large mass on her left kidney, suspected to be cancerous. May our King look upon Caroline and her family with mercy, bringing the salvation message to them in powerful ways as well as healing, wholeness, and comfort.


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Prayer Requests March (Part 2) 2024: Watchmen Before the Throne

A group of fellow believers unite in prayer as one in our Messiah Jesus to stand in the gap before the throne for others.


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Join us before our King . . .


The latest prayer needs are listed below.

Email your prayer requests:


It’s time. Let the battle commence: intercessory prayer for those hurting, confused, lost, seeking, or caught in the enemy’s traps. We seek God’s face, His will, His direction for His namesake and glory.


I waited expectantly, patiently for the Lord until He reached down to me and heard my cry. —Psalm 40:1


March (Part 2) 2024


We pray for you all—prayer warriors and those on this list . . . asking that you may be filled with the knowledge of His will in all spiritual wisdom and understanding so as to walk in a manner worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing to Him, bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power, according to his glorious might for all endurance and patience with joy, giving thanks to the Father. —Colossians 1:9b-12a






Psalm 107:1

Oh give thanks to the LORD, for he is good, for his steadfast love endures forever!

UPDATE! We prayed (March 2024’s list) for the father of Behold Israel’s Pastor Mike. On Monday, our BI prayer team got word that Gary who was quite ill and in the hospital is doing much better. Glory to our King for His mercies, compassion, and kindness!




Psalm 95:2

Let us come into his presence with thanksgiving;
let us make a joyful noise to him with songs of praise!

We prayed for Henry (a February 2024 list). He’s been in dire straits—doing drugs, his pregnant girlfriend possibly returning to jail. But . . . he’s doing better (just got a job!) and sent his sister ultrasound pictures of the baby. Please keep them in your prayers: salvation, stable finances, God’s mercy, protection for the baby.


#1. J.B.

Psalm 91:14-16

“Because he loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call on me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.”

S.O.S. This amazing woman with years following the Lord and writing books to encourage others in Jesus is in a crisis of faith—depression rising. She needs believers to call out to our King, praying that He’ll stop the enemy’s grip on her and that the Holy Spirit will cover her with all Truth to revive, strengthen, and restore her.


#2. J’s Jewish Husband

Romans 1:16

For I am not ashamed of the gospel, for it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes, to the Jew first and also to the Greek.

For years J’s hubby said he’d never believe in Jesus but now started attending a couple’s Bible study with his wife. GLORY! He’s loving it and building relationships. Please lift him up that our Lord’s love and truth will rise up in his soul so he can have the joy and privilege of knowing his Jewish Messiah. Lord, please remove the veil from his heart, soul, eyes!



3 John 1:2

Beloved, I pray that all may go well with you and that you may be in good health, as it goes well with your soul.

This sweet man needs God’s continued healing after having stents put in (successfully) but now is dealing with unrelated back pain. May God’s grace flow from His throne, releasing healing spiritually and physically. Let Your Name, Lord Jesus, arise to bring comfort and joy in you for your glory and this dear person’s good.



Proverbs 4:20-22

Turn your ear to my words. Do not let them out of your sight, keep them within your heart; for they are life to those who find them and health to one’s whole body.”

Matthew: It’s been a rough journey for my 40-year-old bipolar nephew. Lord, please reach down and bring Matthew healing on every level, calm, protection, and full restoration and deliverance of mind, body, soul. Ignite in him a lasting passion for you, reminding him of when he received you as his Savior when he was eight. Surround him, Abba, with your Word, Truth, Life, Way, to the glory of our Messiah.



Isaiah 33:2

LORD, be gracious to us; we long for you. Be our strength every morning, our salvation in time of distress.

Joshua—early 20s—is a young believer and serving in the Air Force. May the Lord fill him to overflowing in solid Biblical truth vs the worldview encroaching on our young adults and culture. And may he grow in the wisdom and knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ . . . serving our nation in good health (mind, body, soul) under the holy protection of God’s hands.



Psalm 94:18-19

When I thought, “My foot slips,” Your steadfast love, O LORD, helped me up. When the cares of my heart are many, Your consolations cheer my soul.

James—about to turn 30 this coming week—is a believer seeking God’s face and a breakthrough on several fronts: (1) understanding and wisdom on fiscal decision-making; (2) direction and a stronger footing in his life; (3) restoration where needed and continued alignment to God’s ways; (4) God’s intervention to heal and repair familial relationships; (5) salvation and growth in God for Alex and her entire family.


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Prayer Requests March 2024: Watchmen Before the Throne

A group of fellow believers unite in prayer as one in our Messiah Jesus.


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Join us before our King . . .


The latest prayer needs are listed below.

Email your prayer requests:


Ready? Let the battle commence. Intercessory prayer is strategic, seeking God’s face, His will, His direction.


I waited expectantly, patiently for the Lord until He reached down to me and heard my cry. —Psalm 40:1


March 2024

6 Prayer Listings




1 Samuel 2:1b,2

“My heart exults in the LORD! . . . There is none holy like the LORD, for there is none like You; there’s no rock like our God.”


We prayed for K.M. (last prayer list) who was experiencing the wounds of a breaking marriage.


Well, God stepped in! K.M. sought the Lord, heard from Him, and was joyfully blessed by God’s intervention. Her husband has turned his heart toward the marriage and is seeking God’s desire.


It’s a process, so more prayers are needed. But they’re taking the first steps for reconciliation, working through issues and intending to seek pastoral counseling.


May our King continue to draw them to Himself, His ways, His love, and to one another—a three-stranded-cord marriage. Thank you, Lord. You are the GREAT I AM, overflowing with power, kindness, and mercy. Praise His Holy, Glorious NAME.



Isaiah 42:16

This sweet Christian brother is going through a shifting from the Lord. He’s at a crossroads, searching for a new place to live after being with his two brothers for a long time. He’s seeking God’s direction and favor for a peaceful transition—and salvation for his older brother, James.



PSALM 57:1

We’ve prayed for her before—back in November and December 2023 about her cancer diagnosis. Now she’s begun radiation treatment. May God spread His glorious wings, sheltering her in His mercy and healing.



PSALM 63:7

A beautiful sister in the Lord recently had to downsize again and has boxes everywhere . . . but has COPD (on oxygen) and other health issues. She needs God’s wisdom, perseverance, and blessings from others to help when she’s ready for extra hands.



PSALM 18:28

This dear 25-year-old is in a difficult battle against cancer of the esophagus. May the Lord rise up and command the enemy’s hands removed from her and may the blood of Jesus cover and heal her.



2 CORINTHIANS 4:8-9, 16-18

Being on the frontlines of this powerful ministry (from Israel, to Israel, and out to the world), the Behold Israel team (in Israel, the US, Canada) and their family members are under heavy attack. Please pray for them! They give so much to the work of the Lord despite their trials.


* Israel: Amir (Israeli Jew/Christian, ministry founder), his wife (Miriam), and family. Two of their four children—a son and a daughter—are serving in the IDF. Need I say more? Their eldest son has served prior. Amir is pressing forward like a modern-day Paul, focused on the Lord. May God greatly shield their entire family on all levels, blessing them at every turn.

* Stateside: Gale (VP of Ministry Service) and his family are likewise being hit hard. His adult son (early 40s) has leukemia and has started treatment. The entire family needs the Lord’s gentle touch, His healing hand and deep mercy through this extremely difficult season.

* Canada: Nick (Director of BI in Canada) is suffering with severe back and body pain. May our King speak healing and comfort over him—and may God’s grace and rest cover his wife Tina and their family.

* Stateside: Joanne (BI’s Ministry Care Coordinator) has been enduring some serious health issues and faces yet another surgery. May the Lord lift her to His heart and breathe healing throughout her body, mind, and soul.

* Stateside: Pastor Mike’s father (Gary) is quite ill and in the hospital. May the Lord embrace Gary and his entire family with His comfort, strength, and deep peace.

* Stateside: Steve Yohn (writer/editor who teams with Amir on his books) has had a lengthy health battle. May the Lord bring forth the right doctors, excellent medical staff, and best treatments to usher in complete healing bathed in God’s immense mercy. And, if He’s willing, may He intervene with supernatural healing.


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Prayer Requests February 2024: Watchmen Before the Throne

A group of fellow believers united in prayer as one in our Messiah Jesus.


© (.com and .org) & All rights reserved.


Join us before our King . . .


Recent prayer needs listed below.

Email your prayer requests:


Let the battle commence. Intercessory prayer is strategic, seeking God’s face, His will, His direction.


I waited expectantly, patiently for the Lord until He reached down to me and heard my cry. —Psalm 40:1


February 2024

7 Prayer Listings



Psalm 34:18

The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Carmella’s longtime friend, partner, and fiancé–Gary–passed away unexpectedly on Monday, February 19. May his memory be a comfort to her and every family member both now and throughout this year. And may the faithful, loving presence of the Lord be a source of great strength for her in the days and months ahead.



Psalm 145:17-19

A strong believer in the LORD, J.B. seeks His wisdom for her high-pressured medical job, His favor in a financial investment, and His loving intervention in her friend’s life (Eric) who needs salvation through Jesus our Messiah.



Psalm 71:15-17

Lisa has stood on her Rock, her Messiah Jesus, through a stroke, cancer, and Lupus. Walking with a limp and a cane, she still is going strong, praising her King. Lord, please bless her abundantly for sharing her uplifting testimony and for her kindness to us at the cinema.



2 Corinthians 5:17

Henry needs a divine appointment with the Lord for salvation. He is doing drugs, his girlfriend is pregnant, and she may need to return to jail. Currently, he has no visible means of support to take care of himself or the child or his girlfriend. May their hearts, minds, and souls be turned toward God–and may the Lord’s mighty hands protect this unborn child.



Psalm 91:4

Christian marriages are under assault—the enemy’s troops are on the move, deceiving many spouses in ways that lead to betrayals, separations, and divorce. May the Lord embrace these women whose husbands have gone prodigal. May our King of Glory cover Colleen, K.M., and L.G. (along with her little daughter, Abigail) with His truth and holiness, ushering in His discernment, healing, leading, comfort, and protection as they maneuver a painful separation and transition period.



Jeremiah 17:14

May the Lord’s mercy cover Maureen from the top of her head to the bottom of her feet and bring healing to her lungs, removing aches and pains, worries and fears. May His Name be magnified.



Psalm 90:17

Ian’s an owner of a business selling international spices. He had been doing well, but due to overly zealous litigious lawyers in California that have brought down many such businesses, things are difficult for Ian right now. He appreciates your prayers for his business. May the Lord restore his business or lead him to a new one, using all of this to bring Ian closer to Him and salvation through Jesus, our Messiah.


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Flashes of Lightning: Utter-Quiet, Hear His Voice, I AM, Trust (Watchwords for 2024)


As 2024 stood in the ready, a restless spiritual longing that had been stirring within me for a while surfaced. The eventual calm came with four watchwords God impressed on me—the last one is a command. Here’s what He showed me.


“I will take my stand at my watch post and station myself on the tower and look out to see what He will say to me.” —Habakkuk 2:1


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WATCHWORD GIVEN: From New Year’s Eve Eve 2023 and the initial moments of January 1, 2024, 12:01 am through God’s appointed third watch (midnight to 3 am).


Days before 2024 rolled in, a restlessness brewed within me as I waited for the watchword God would give me during our decades-long New Year’s Eve prayer “date.”


Part of it was a desire—quickening, aching, rising—for something with God, from God, that could not yet be defined—something that existed far beyond what’s been. For you, for me, for all who seek His face.


I’ve broken this post into the four intrinsically linked watchwords impressed on me for 2024—the first (lion’s share of the post) sets the course for the other three. I’ve also shared scriptures, some reflections, and my experiences along the way.


That said … How God uses this post for your walk is between you and Him, confirmed by His Word.


These watchwords themselves aren’t new per se . . . but how He moves in them may well be.


And note: they’re not more things to squeeze onto an already crowded, guilt-ridden To-Do list. This is God calling us nearer, birthed from His love and holy desire in this critical prophesy-rich hour.


1. Utter-Quiet

2. Hear His Voice

3. I AM

4. Trust [a command]


Surrendering to Him more means change is afoot, possibly leading to . . .


a redirection

to the unexpected, to a more humbled, childlike re-beginning in Him, the God of beginnings within beginnings


a release

from anything veiled under the vast, comfortable umbrella of the common, rote, patterned, sound-bite driven, self-focusing provincial surrounding us and within us


a shedding

of whatever the Lord highlights that has to go—like those faltering intents and mental attitude sins that have gone stealth, secreted in the crevices of our minds and souls


of any hardness within . . . lethargy, a distracted spirit, compromise and spiritual waning, self-focus, shrouded pretenses, deceit, duplicity of heart, or guile, false motives hidden from others and ourselves


a disruption

of what’s been for something more honestly and better aligned with Him . . . a truly consecrated life . . . where daily living is worship in action . . . a breaking up of what was within for a breaking through to His heart . . . the new pouring out to burst the old





The spiritual restlessness mentioned earlier in this post had occurred at various times throughout my walk. And similar to the past, it signaled that a shift-and-release is unfolding.


But this time, the restlessness cut deeper, broader, begging for a rushing away from the “sound” pollution, the noise storm, crashing against my soul. The daily chatter, mumblings, rumblings. The spiritually intrusive along with the well-meaning busyness of life—even ministry-focused endeavors and beloved biblically-focused broadcasts and the group-immersive resonance of church services/worship, in person or online.


My soul sought major relief before the Lord. From other people’s voices. And especially, from my own.


We’re the sheep of God’s pasture. And sheep, as I recently learned, change their ear positions when they’re stressed, fearful, in pain, contented, etc.—and they don’t like loud noises. Well, I could relate. Because spiritually, my ears were twitching. The life “noise” around me—even the noise from the rest of the flock—needed quelling. God was calling.


I felt like a bruised sheep seeking its shepherd’s refuge, longing for His arms and assurance, His authoritative staff leading me to quieted waters, and His voice—recognizable, comforting, trustworthy—driving back the exhausting sway of the noise storm.


Soul desire: to find rest in the tenor of Heaven—the unalterable, unwavering calm riding on the wings of God’s Holy Spirit . . . to sit in my LORD’s utter-quiet.




The Lord called me to a special time of our year-end prayer, earlier than usual—the night before New Year’s Eve. Maybe as a kindness to relieve my soul and give it the deep exhale-inhale-exhale it panted for. Maybe to help my sheep-ears get repositioned to standing status again. Or maybe He did it for something else entirely. His lead. Mine to follow.


Gentle, low-key worship music—a new-to-me, refreshingly different CD that honored His Name—streamed softly in the background. No other sounds. No other voices. No daily life noise pollution. Only my Bible and journal at the ready next to me.


And then, in time, there it was. A stilling, a shushing of my soul.


His humbling utter-quiet.


All masks drop. His presence real, down-to-the-bone revealing. His holiness, a penetrating truth. The soul, naked before Him.




awed by His magnitude and might

fear-struck by His profound holiness



And yet, gratitude rises. His grace lifts it higher. His mercies and forgiveness gifted through our Messiah Jesus/Yeshua are overwhelming, unfathomable.


As I prayed-journaled, I felt like a sheep-reverted-to-a-lamb. Herded forward to a new beginning. To become like a child again before Him, humbled, leaning on Him, teachable, obedient, trusting, seeking, panting after Him, wide-eyed and filled with wonder.


From now and until we’re called home, may we seize our days, hours, moments. May we deep-dive, desiring Him, voyaging to unexplored depths in His utter-quiet.


The Lord of Hosts, Him shall you consecrate (sanctify),

He shall be your fear (trembling, holy fear),

He shall be your dread (awe).

He will be a holy place (a sacred place, a sanctuary, a mikdash)

Isaiah 8:13-14a







Experiencing His utter-quiet creates a radical change, freeing a believer’s soul from its worn-torn, desolated state.


In Genesis 1:1-2, the earth is a ghastly desolation and emptiness. God’s glory moves over the chaotic—the tehom (Hebrew for depths, subterranean waters, even a deep soul-to-soul murmuring). Torah scholar/author Avivah Gottlieb Zornberg suggests God cuts through that deep murmuring—the “primal noise”1 to form a “creative silence,” a clearing for His creation Word to come forth.


I sense God’s desire to do that with our desolated souls, our groaning. Cutting through our noise (internal and external) on the subterranean level to usher in His utter-quiet where relationship with Him, authentically knowing Him, honesty before Him, and deep change ignite and grow. A deeper move forward into a spiritual, consecrated lifestyle of regularly forsaking the noise to submerge in His utter-quiet.



A Hebrew word came to mind. It’s found toward the end of the blessing said before studying the words of Torah: la’asok.


It means to immerse ourselves in, soak up (as one of my rabbis used to say every Torah study), engage in, engross ourselves in, occupy ourselves with, toil in.


That’s what God’s utter-quiet is about. Simply “be” with Him. To sit with Him awhile. To soak up and bask in His loving, mighty presence.


In His quiet, our souls are quiet. As the noise within us and the noisy pressures of the world and others fade, He and His Word step forth.


And we’re ready to la’asok b’divrei Yeshuatenu—to soak up the words of the God of our Salvation (Psalm 68:19 [20]).


John 1:1, 14a

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God,

and the Word was God . . .

and the Word became flesh and dwelt among us.





Right before I opened my eyes around 5 am on New Year’s Eve, I clearly heard this spoken to me:


“To hear his voice, go deeper into worship.”


This isn’t about singing louder, cranking up the volume, wildly dancing, or gathering 100 of your closest friends for a worship fest in the backyard—as wonderful as all of that would be.


Going deeper in worship (in this context) is birthed within His utter-quiet presence. Wooed and radically amazed by His character and might. Overtaken by Him. Consumed by Him. His being. His holiness. His gentleness.


Your soul bows down. It may weep at His beauty, majesty, grace. But it can no longer be silent. It must speak out, sing out, cry out His Name, praise Him . . . because we were created for His glory (honor), called by His Name, formed to declare His praise (Isaiah 43:7, 21).


Words adoring Him seep out from meek crevices in your soul and stream from your lips. They can be said, they can be sung, they can be whispered, they can be exuberantly shouted. Overcome by His weighty presence, even your body might not be still.


That level of worship becomes a sweet offering carried by a fiery, unquenchable, indestructible passion for Him. A dance of your two souls binding together. Ascending higher in Him to new depths and breadths, climbing the rungs of Jacob’s ladder, that Heaven-and-Earth connection in Jesus/Yeshua, you join the voices of Heaven . . .


Holy, Holy, Holy is the LORD GOD ALMIGHTY, who was, and who is, and who is to come.


In that stillness of soul, that deeper worship level, your spiritual being is sensitized, nurtured, corrected, encouraged, a repository where God can release new or greater insight and understanding.


Walking in it. Worshiping deeper flows from the utter-quiet out to your day-to-day life, into all that you do: laundry, your job, cleaning the house, caring for family members (human and furry ones), helping others, going the extra mile, waiting in line, etc.


Your soul carries the calm and understanding gleaned from the utter-quiet so your life becomes humble worship before Him, before others. Because with every breath, it’s about Him, it’s about Him, it’s about Him. Breathing Him in, exhaling Him out to the world.


I am my beloved’s and my beloved is mine.

Ani l’dodi v’dodi li’

אני לדודי ודודי לי


Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men,

knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward.

You are serving the Lord Messiah.

Colossians 3:23-24



#3: I AM

#4: TRUST [a command]


New Year’s eve with the Lord began with His addressing a recent, spiritually sorrowful upset in our family.


NOTE: What the Lord impressed on me is relevant to all of us, whatever situations we face or will be facing going forward.

About a month prior, an in-law went rogue. Prodigal. And that forced a heart-wrenching rift in their marriage. My soul reeled, aching first and foremost for my immediate family member experiencing it . . . but also for the one causing the pain, blinded by what they’ve done.


No matter how many times I’d asked the Lord if I could call, text, whatever, His answer was the same: a flat no.


But my soul was wrecked. I’d gone prodigal in my earlier adult years in the Lord—nearly 50 years ago—and the pain of that still stings.


So I kept petitioning Him: “Lord, someone has to speak to this person. They need help. They need to see spiritually what they’ve done and where they’re headed. Please, send someone. Who will go?”


And bam! Just like that, God had these words looming taller than me and BOLDLY LARGE before me, appearing like this:





This wasn’t God merely saying, “Hey, I’ve got it covered.”


He was conveying much more, wanting me—and all of us—to more fully, deeply embrace and more firmly stand expectantly on His Name which we know reveals His character:


I AM the Great One. I AM the Mighty One.


And I and I alone will be doing this.



Only I AM can move into the heart. Only I AM can send His Spirit to convict and counsel the soul.


In Isaiah 45, He declares: I AM the LORD and there is no other . . . I, the LORD, speak righteousness . . . There is no other God besides Me . . . A just God and a Savior.


Immediately, the Lord hung another word—a command—also tall and BOLDLY LARGE looming before me. It was so spiritual that it became somewhat physical . . . I had to lean back a bit to avoid nearly “bumping” into it as I tried to sit down on my sofa, grasping what He was doing. That’s how real and palatable it was.




His command meant: TRUST the GREAT I AM.

Trust in His character, His love, His long, long, long-suffering.

TRUST His timing. Don’t jump ahead.

Don’t lean away . . . doing a “little” something to help out.



There’s a difference between faith (אמונה, emunah) and trust (בִּטָּחוֹן, bitachon): Believing God exists is faith. But trust is having the certainty, the confidence, that God is “involved in events and that their outcome accords with His will,” as The Stone Edition of the Chumash (Torah) puts it.


For me, trust is walking on a high-wire with no visible net, putting my faith (emunah) in the GREAT I AM (who is my net).


May we grow closer to Him in this hour of biblical prophetic history . . . growing in His love and bearing His NAME to a lost world.


1. Run to Him in His utter-quiet.

2. Go deeper in worship to Hear His Voice.

3. Fix your eyes on the GREAT I AM.

4. Walk in His command . . . TRUST the GREAT I AM.



1. The Murmuring Deep, Avivah Gottlieb Zornberg. Schocken Books, New York, 2009

2. The Stone Edition of the Chumash (Parasha Vayeishev, Genesis 37-40:23, pg 221)



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I waited expectantly, patiently for the Lord;

until He reached down to me and heard my cry. —Psalm 40:1


January 8, 2024

11 Listings/Prayer Requests


Adonai, we join David in the words of his Psalm 40: “How much you have done, my God! Your wonders and your thoughts toward us—none can compare with you.”


We bow down to you in gratitude, in humility, seeking your presence in these many requests . . . pierce the darkness, breathe hope and encouragement, release healing and answers, cover us with your wisdom, clarity, and discernment in this late hour we’re in. We intercede on behalf of these listed below in the precious, life-changing, life-giving Name Above All Names, Jesus, our Messiah.



A lovely 81-year-old believer in Jesus seeking His help with fiscal stability, health, direction. She’s doggedly working three part-time jobs and still struggling. Praying God sends the ministry of healing in all levels along with warring angels to supply all her needs in every area of her life for His glory.


Donny Davis

He’s in the hospital with a blood infection, bladder infection, and kidney infection. Father, speak to the minds and hearts of the doctors to know which medication to use . . . but please step in supernaturally to bring total healing and the salvation message in a way that penetrates Donny’s soul, mind, body for physical and spiritual recovery.


Miss Jessee

Abba, let wisdom with discretion fall down upon her like holy rain from your throne. Help her hear your voice in new ways and follow you, not veering off course or leaning to her own understanding. Release the resources to enable her to move forward on this unique journey of yours, canceling demonic assignments and interference so she remains in sync with you on every level.



We cry for mercy. Cody is suffering from a serious condition with his hands making it difficult for him to do his job at times. Also, may his soul hunger for and receive Jesus, our Messiah.



It’s been a long journey finding work. Thank you, Lord, for the gifts and skills you’ve given your daughter Lisa. As she waits expectantly, faithfully, humbly before you, let your will arise and your perfect ways beam forth like the noon-day sun, blessing her at every turn.


Carmella & family

Carm is struggling with health issues of her own plus her entire family—every one of her many brothers are ill; one is quite ill with stage 4 cancer. And her brother-in-law (Tom) just got diagnosed with acute myeloid leukemia (six weeks of aggressive treatment needed)—and her spouse (Gary) has heart valve issues. Mighty, Glorious King, our Great Healer and Restorer, please cover Carmella and her family with your steadfast love, continual presence, releasing encouragement to these whose hearts have experienced hope deferred along this rugged road. May they be comforted by your Holy Spirit and draw closer to you.



How marvelous you are, Lord! Blessing this brother and his wife with an unexpected pregnancy—twin boys! They’ve had only girls prior. May his wife find rest, healing, and carry them well in full-term for your glory. And may these sons be carriers of your presence all the days of their lives, telling many of your ways, greatness, and salvation through Jesus.


Gene & Toni

My Uncle Gene and my dear sister in the Lord (Toni) need God’s covering. Both are having possible colon issues. El Shaddai, our Mighty God, may you direct the physicians, diagnostics, and outcomes for complete healing so your Name is lifted up and Gene and Toni are blessed.



Walk with your daughter, sweet King. Put your arms around her, teach her, lead her, heal her physically, emotionally, spiritually as she braves through a divorce stirred by her spouse’s emotional and then physical infidelity. Let her know you in new ways that she may walk even closer to you than before as you bring spiritual beauty from these painful ashes.



Abba, your eye is everywhere . . . on the rulers of the earth and the poor. You see the hard work this homeless man does. Bless him. Have mercy on him. Heal his body, mind, and soul and bring stability to him through Your Powerful Name, for you are God our Provider. You and no other.



Flood her life’s walkway with your Holy Spirit. Cover her with your wisdom and discernment as she maneuvers the legalities of child custody and a divorce. Please, Adonai, keep all facets of this process from causing anguish to their six-year-old daughter. May your NAME and ways REIGN through all of this.


God is unwavering. He is with us through the wastelands, the wilderness, the lofty places, the murky waters. Teach us and gather us near to you, Lord.

Adonai is the one who saves the righteous.

He is their stronghold in times of trouble.

He saves them because they take refuge in him.

Psalm 37:39,40b


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I waited expectantly, patiently for the Lord;

until He turned toward me and heard my cry. —Psalm 40:1


DECEMBER 8, 2023

9-1-1 Prayer Requests: Michael, M.A.J., Charlotte, Carmella, Kellie

Plus: Special Updates on Prior Requests


1. Michael. Spiritual, physical, and emotional healing for this 25-year-old who is in deep waters. He’s had health issues (autoimmune) since he was a child and then cardiac issues from his late teens. As a child, Michael was flowing in the joy of the Lord. But since his teens, the chronic illnesses have stirred up anger and depression—but those outbursts and emotional issues are believed to be driven by our enemy (satan) and his demonic cohorts.


Michael (mind, body, soul) needs to be freed from this stronghold and turned back to God and our Messiah Jesus, the Restorer, the Healer, the Lord of Shalom (completeness, wholeness, peace). And his mother—along with the family—needs God’s mercies, strength, comfort, and encouragement covering her with your restful, quieted Spirit and healing, repairing and closing the wound of her aching heart.


Mighty King, please annihilate the enemy’s strongholds—physically, mentally, and spiritually—on Michael. Pulverize the lies and let your TRUTH arise. Lead Michael into your peace and remove the bitter root and all its entanglements from the past. Great Restorer, remind his soul of his youth and joy with you. Help him rekindle that passion; fan the flames. Restore to his soul who you are and please do a deep work so he knows you are for him (not against him) and you are with him. Cause him to lie down in your green pastures (refreshed in your Word, Presence). And restore (repair, return to a better condition) his soul, in Jesus’s precious name.


2. M.A.J. Another young man shackled by the enemy, living in the realm of demons. M.A.J. is in his mid-30s and suffering from a drug-induced psychosis. He exhibits bizarre, reckless behavior, resulting from years of using psychedelic drugs to cope.


He’s bound. Spiritually, physically, mentally. And the family is crushed. They and M.A.J. need our prayer support—big time. The family’s prayer request is that M.A.J. will enter a 90-day rehabilitation program. Note: He’s Jewish and has renounced Judaism.


Abba, hear the cries of this family. See the heartache, the pain, the bewilderment, the near hopelessness. Look down on M.A.J., and please let your mercies flow bearing deliverance. Pierce the darkness, command the shackles and blinders to fall off and bring healing—lift his head toward you and breathe new life into him for your glory. Help him discern your good from the enemy’s evil. Realign his soul and mind with you. For your name’s sake, O Lord, preserve his life, and in your righteousness bring his soul out of trouble (Psalms 143:110).

We pray and stand on Psalms 3 in Jesus’s name:

But you, O Lord, are a shield about me,

my glory, and the lifter of my head.

I cried aloud to the Lord,

and he answered me from his holy hill.


3. Charlotte W. The biopsy results on her lower right jaw came in: 75% malignant and they found something on her lungs.


She started prep for her surgery: the surgery is December 22 for the lump on her lower right neck. Then they can determine what stage her cancer is and what treatment is needed post surgery.


Hopefully, they’ll also be able to tell her about the spot they found on her lungs.


Charlotte is Catholic and believes in Jesus as Messiah but is understandably worried and under much stress. She’s seeking His intervention, healing, and comfort.


Holy One of Israel, we bow before you, kneeling on your Word, your promises, in faith, in Jesus’s wondrous name:

When you (Charlotte) pass through the waters, I will be with you;

and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;

when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,

and the flame shall not consume you.

For I am the LORD your God . . .

Isaiah 43:2-3a


Lord, may your glory, holy Presence, and promises bring Charlotte guidance for treatments, healing on all levels, encouragement through the valley, and blessed assurance of You, casting out all fear. Envelope her with your garments of love, a love not of this world, but gloriously, faithfully true.


4. Carmella. A dear friend to me over the many years who has had a series of health setbacks. More recently, back in September/October, Carm had a stroke and then recently had a bad fall. The doctor says it’ll take time to heal. Praying that the Lord will help her rest in Him . . . so her body, mind, and soul can be restored, revived, by His hand.


Majestic in power and glory is our Lord God. Our Shepherd whose yoke is easy and whose burden is light. Shelter your daughter Carmella under your wings, drawing her closer, quieting her soul to truly rest (spiritually and physically) in your Presence and promises. Light up her way and carry healing from your throne to her. And, as in Hebrews 4:16, help her to confidently draw near to the throne of grace, that she may receive mercy and find grace to help her in time of need. In Jesus’s sweet name.


5. Kellie, Pastor JD Farag’s wife. (JD is the gifted teacher/pastor of Calvary Chapel Kaneohe, Hawaii.) A strong woman of faith in Christ Jesus, Kellie has overcome many trials in her walk with our King. And now she faces yet another. Kellie recently learned that her breast cancer (diagnosed this past summer) has spread to her lymph nodes. Yet, she and her husband press onward, carrying on in ministry, faithful to their calling before our King. We’re praying for mercy, favor, healing, strength, and a testimony of your love, Father, so that then all shall know that you are the GREAT I AM, the LORD GOD, and there is NO OTHER but you.

Psalms 84:5-7, 11-12

Blessed are those (Blessed is Kellie) whose strength is in you,

in whose heart are the highways to Zion.

As they go (As Kellie goes)through the Valley of Baca (trouble)

they make it a place of springs;

the early rain also covers it with pools.

They go (Kellie goes)from strength to strength;

each one appears before God in Zion . . .

For the LORD God is a sun and shield;

the LORD bestows favor and honor.

No good thing does he withhold

from those who walk (from Kellie who walks) uprightly.

O LORD of hosts, blessed is the one (Kellie) who trusts in you!




UPDATE! Cathy. We prayed for her (November 26 prayer request) because she had received a malignant breast biopsy report. Thank you, Lord, that Cathy is negative for the BRCA gene which means no double mastectomy needed! She’ll have a lumpectomy and radiation instead. Cathy thanks everyone for their prayer support. Please continue to pray for her during this treatment. Thank you, warriors.


UPDATE! Jamie. We’ve been praying for Jamie who has stage 4 lung and liver cancer. But on November 30 and December 1, we had 9-1-1 prayer intercession because he was in the hospital with pneumonia and awaiting diagnostics and treatment. God moved! Jamie is home with oxygen and antibiotics—and feeling stronger every day. He thanks everyone and was so encouraged by your prayers—and continues to ask for them as he battles the stage 4 cancers.



Immediate Prayer!


Jamie. Oh precious prayer circle family … please take a few moments to pray for this dire, immediate issue–and pray as often for it as the Lord brings it to remembrance.

Jamie is my sweet cousin with stage 4 lung and liver cancer who many of you have been graciously praying for. (Thank you for that.)

He is in the hospital (in Ohio) with pneumonia–it’s near the site of his lung cancer. He has an exploratory diagnostic tomorrow to assess the situation.


NOVEMBER 26, 2023

Many Important Requests!


1. Cathy. Received a malignant breast biopsy report.
May God’s grace, comfort, and healing garments envelope her and draw her closer to Him. May He lead her to the best treatments/protocol as He, the Majestic Giver of Life, sustains her every step of the way.


2. Evelyn. Wearing a monitor to determine heart issues.
Please, Lord, you are the great revealer and healer. Cover her with your mercies, keeping your healing hand on her and give the doctors wisdom/understanding.


3. K.M. May her walk with God be strengthened, girded by His character, sweet Presence, and deep love for her as she seeks His comfort and leading through a difficult life passage.
Pray Psalms 18:28-30.


4. Robbie. He’s on dialysis but got covid then sepsis.
Please pray for his healing and God’s intervention so Robbie and his Jewish family will come to know and believe in the promised Messiah, Jesus, our redeemer.


5. Donny D. May the Lord step into his life in new ways, ushering in physical healing and insurance/financial resources–and performing a deep work to bring Donny to salvation in Christ Jesus.


6. S.S. May the Lord pave the way for her book–which honors His Name–to be completed per His leading and excellence and in His timeline so many will read her testimony and trust in Him.


7. Philomena. Her 98th Birthday in mid-December! Lord God, thank you. Your mercies are all too wonderful. Please, may your favor, joy, and protection bathe her during this celebratory season.


8. Abigail, a six-year-old, and her mom (L). Gracious Father, please embrace Abigail in your arms and bring your little lamb to complete healing from her recent fall and stitches.
And for L, may you release your rest, spiritual clarity, and physical healing from your throne to bless and love on her in special ways.


9. Toby. Andrea’s 10-year-old Australian Shepherd. A sweet companion who’s healing from a neck injury and now has a spine issue.
Abba, all creation is yours and dear to your heart. Please touch your Toby with healing and breathe through him a longer, joyful, safe life.


10. J.W. May the gifts and calling that you have placed on this young man continue to mature and be enriched in this season. For the things that he desires and seeks your leading on, heightened his spiritual hearing and spiritual understanding so his heart will always be locked in step with you, so he showers those around him with your love.


11. Four health needs

* Michelle (healing process for allergies/sense of smell)

* Jamie (ongoing cancer treatments)

* Toni

* Kylee (ongoing pregnancy wellness)

Thank you, Father, for your hand on these four health situations. Only you have the power and the glory to uplift, sustain, heal, and encourage them.

We lay them at your throne of grace, trusting that you will expand your wings and draw them into your loving shelter, opening your hand to provide everything needed. Pray Psalms 91 over them.


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Flashes of Lightning: God the Restorer & 1 Samuel 3 (2023—The Call)


The world may be swirling in every direction, but God’s plan, purpose, mercies, and faithfulness will prevail. ALWAYS. Here are the words and scriptures that unfolded before and within me at the stroke of 2023’s entrance and shortly thereafter.


“I will take my stand at my watch post and station myself on the tower, and look out to see what He will say to me.” —Habakkuk 2:1


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WATCHWORD GIVEN: January 1, 2023, 12:01 am through God’s appointed third watch (midnight to 3 am).


As midnight released 2023, my soul began to grieve for the state of the world.


The coldness, self-centeredness, vanity, violence, ethnic divisions, deepened darkness, escalation of Christian persecutions and persecutions of all kinds.


The false religions and lies about God’s Word and our Messiah Jesus, and the twisted mindset and reversals in global culture that have wormed their way into the souls of humanity on every level—calling good evil and evil good.


And the sins stirring within each of us. Sins that we gloss over, accept, and daily commit before Him, our holy, powerful God.


I thought: Lord, if you hadn’t written yourself into our human story . . . where would we be? You alone are our hope, our salvation, the very life breath of our soul.


An image flashed, leading me upward. Over the next three hours, I would experience a message with moving parts:


(1) various scriptures

(2) interwoven teachings

(3) a holy-fire vision (regarding our 2023 Call)

(4) a dream with 1 Samuel 3 prominent, a dream He’d first given me in mid-November and then brought forward during this special third-watch prayer time.





Random worship softly played in my room, then one word rose within me.




In Hebrew, Eli Shuv (אֶלְיָשִׁיב, My God Restores). This is who God is. This is what He will show Himself to be in 2023 as we humble ourselves before Him and call out, surrendered to His glorious, supreme being.


“Shuv” (שוב) is the Hebrew root found in teshuva (teh-shoo-vah), a critical word during the High Holy Days—the Judaic Days of Awe beginning with honey-kissed Rosh Hashanah (Head or First of the Year) and ending with the somber Day of Atonement, Yom Kippur—calling us to turn back from our offenses and return to God for restoration.


It’s also the beginning step to God’s ABC ROADMAP TO HEAVEN. His redemption plan from the beginning through Yeshua (Jesus), the Messiah.


That first word He’d impressed on me—RESTORER—and 1 Samuel 3 (from that dream I mentioned earlier) are hinged, forming the crux of this 2023 word. (And I couldn’t help but think how this “restorer” had already begun its unfolding with Bibi Netanyahu being restored as Israel’s Prime Minister.)


I’ll get to that I Samuel 3 scripture shortly, but keep reading because the following scriptures link everything together.


Psalm 23:1-3 (ESV). In the latter part of 2022, God had laid the groundwork for these moving parts and in the third watch of January 1, 2023, he brought those parts forward. This psalm was among them, confirming His words, confirming Himself on an even deeper level than before as the mighty, compassionate RESTORER.


The One we need as 2023 unfolds.


The LORD is my SHEPHERD (tending to me, pasturing me).


I shall not want (He’ll tend to my needs, my soul won’t be lacking).


He makes me (causes me to) lie down in green pastures (refreshed).


He LEADS ME (leads me to a watering-place or station that He’s ordained for me and causes me to rest there), beside STILL waters (rest, quietness, refreshment).


He RESTORES (refreshes, repairs, returns to a better condition) my soul.






I then was reminded of the spiritually moving scene at the end of The Chosen’s Season 3/Episode 2. The disciples were being sent out two by two to teach what Jesus had taught them and to heal the sick and cast out demons.


Gulp. The disciples were shocked, scared, baffled, and felt totally inept. Rightly so. And yet . . . although the mission—and its timing—made no sense to them, they chose to trust their Messiah and stand as one with Him and each other.


Locking arms, they prayed Psalm 3, the psalm of David when he was fleeing his son Absalom . . .


O Lord, how many are my foes!
Many are rising against me;
many are saying of my soul,
“There is no salvation for him in God.” Selah


But you, O Lord, are a shield about me,
my glory, and the lifter of my head.
I cried aloud to the Lord,
and he answered me from his holy hill. Selah


I lay down and slept;
I woke again, for the Lord sustained me.
I will not be afraid of many thousands of people
who have set themselves against me all around.


Arise, O Lord!
Save me, O my God!
For you strike all my enemies on the cheek;
you break the teeth of the wicked.


Salvation belongs to the Lord;
your blessing be on your people!

Psalm 3 (ESV)



Ezekiel 34 targets Israel and is a Messianic promise as well (verses 23-24)


I myself will be the shepherd of my sheep, and I myself will make them lie down, declares the Lord God.


I will seek the lost, and I will bring back [אָשִׁ֔יב, restore, return] the strayed, and I will bind up the injured, and I will strengthen the weak . . .


and the fat (stout, robust, rich) and the strong I will destroy; I will pasture it with justice.





Sometime during the night of November 17/early morning November 18, 2022, the Lord gave me a dream. There were different elements to the dream, but here’s the critical part to share with you—a scripture that was on a board in front of a congregation: 1 Samuel 3.


As God brought the scripture and dream again to mind in those wee hours of January 1, 2023, I had to ask: Is there a link between RESTORER and this 1 Samuel 3 dream? Plenty, as it turns out.


For the foundation, I was led to an older teaching from East Hill Baptist in the UK that highlighted 1 Samuel 3. (I’d never heard of that church prior.)


Then God stirred my inner waters from that point, knitting all the moving parts (RESTORER, scriptures, dream, vision, etc.) together. It went something like this . . .


LAMP OF GOD. As the light was physically waning in the temple of the LORD, where the ark was, the WORD of GOD was also waning among the people and the priests—i.e. Eli’s sons. As you might recall, even Eli hadn’t taken a hard line with them.


There was no word or vision from our Lord. No ear open to hear, no heart willing to receive, no one surrendered.


Until God called Samuel.

THE CALL OF GOD. In 1 Samuel 3:1, Samuel was ministering to the Lord under the tutelage of Eli. Per the Hebrew text, at that point, Samuel was a na’ar, a young man or lad, defined by age (teen through twenties) or of marriageable age, and sometimes, rabbinically defined as not yet ready to fulfill his duties/position.


Side note: You can read about another na’ar in my Soul Remodeling Series: A Wilderness Call [Jeremiah] Actually, Isaac, Joseph, Samuel, and Jeremiah were all called na’ar, not yeled (boy, child).


Still growing in things of the Lord, Samuel at first (or even the second or third time) didn’t recognize the Lord’s voice. But then he got it, saying “Here I am” (ready to serve), and from there obeyed the Lord regardless of the cost, speaking what God said to speak, doing what He said to do.


I like East Hill’s application of this chapter (my paraphrase about that in the paragraph below):


God calls us again and again until He gets our attention. He’ll call when we least expect it—any year, in any circumstance, at anytime, at any age. Remember that Caleb [who “wholly followed the LORD” per Joshua 14:14] had a new call at 85 years old to take up the high mountains of Israel. God will stir something within us, allowing situations to call us into something more.


My precious fellow believers in Messiah, this is where we are. A New Year, a new calling, regardless of circumstance or age.


There’s work to do and a way for us to be and walk before the LORD. Wholly surrendered, carriers of His Presence. That begins and ends with . . .


WORD OF GOD. Verse 19 tells us that Samuel “grew and the Lord was with him and let none of his words fall to the ground.” The LORD revealed Himself to Samuel by the “word of the LORD.”


THE VISION. Fire flashed before me at this point in my third-watch prayer time. It started at the center, then spread out in every direction like a huge circle. That fire is God’s holy fire of Truth, His Word, in us. It’s not meant to be contained. It must be released.


No matter the cultural mindset, oppositions, persecutions, or the enemy’s divisive tactics . . . we must carry the LORD’s words to others: His truth, His redemption plan, His love for the lost, His love for Israel, His love for fellow believers in Jesus, and our testimonies of what He’s done for us: His faithfulness, mercies, goodness, holiness, and might.


It’s our souls breathing Him in and exhaling Him out onto an increasingly dark, troubled, stubborn, dying world.


In this late hour, like never before, we are to be the salt of the earth (Matthew 5:10-14)—standing against the tide of secular lies and mindsets countering God’s way. Standing unafraid, boldly calling sin for what it is . . . rebellion against our most holy God.


Silence is no longer an option. Not to worry. We can do this together in Him. Psalm 3 reminds us: The LORD is a shield about us, our glory, the lifter of our heads, our Sustainer. We will not fear.


So let’s turn from (shuv) the world noise/distractions and from any self-focused, lethargic living to walking how Jesus walked: spending time alone with the Father, saying/doing as led to glorify our LORD, continually lifting the Lamp of God high for all to see and know.


A holy fire that cannot and will not go out.


Then we will stand and watch as our king, the great RESTORER, the loving Shepherd, refreshes, repairs, restores, and heals our souls, bringing us to pastures of spiritual rest—as well as restoring the souls of those we’ve lifted His lamp to.


May the whole world know of His glory and truth and bow before the majesty of our King.


Behold—hinnêh, הִנֵּה—He is doing something new. May you and I lock arms and humbly answer the call like Samuel: Hineni . . . Here I am.




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Running Deep: Tightrope Walker

Come up to the mountain and stay there. God said that to Moses. But what does that mean for you and me? A lot, as it happens. Like listening, obeying, waiting . . . and possibly some spiritual tightrope-walking to boot.


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Sswimming in God’s murmuring deep . . . that’s the real desire. Speaking with Him soul to soul. Listening for our Redeemer’s stilled, small voice.


But I’ll be honest—there’s a cost. A wrestling within. An off-the-grid trek. Taking you beyond your version of things to a place guaranteed to ruffle your comfy feathers.


When His voice calls you to go higher so you can go deeper, it’s not about pitching your tent in the lower mountain places. Because a change in the physical moves the spiritual . . . and a shift in the spiritual births breakthrough in the physical.

Soaking in His presence is the launching pad: separating time (marking it as holy, set apart for Him) , moving away from the world’s noisy, pushy, self-focused gravitational pull, so you can drink in God’s ways, and then drink in, drink in, and drink in even more.


Here’s a quick story of what my friends and I experienced via a surprising God-move that caused us to wrestle through the process as it took us individually to new territory in Him.





The Lord had led three of my friends and me on a joint spiritual journey a ways back—in a year filled with steeped-in-His-presence lessons that, personally speaking, catapulted my walk into new directions on many levels.


It all started with our hanging out at His well (in prayer, seeking His face, desiring to go deeper). Although we had different backgrounds and approaches, we were one in Messiah, Jesus, honoring God and His Word.


We had agreed to meet weekly via phone for prayer and subsequent God-called fasts. The actual parameters of each fast differed and intensified per the individual intercessor—but the leading of the “when” and the “how long” always fell in absolute unison.


The Lord had impressed on me that parts of my fast would last more than an appointed number of days—they would become integral to my way of life going forward.


Throughout that first year, we had ascended from group prayer time to a higher level of God-led intercession and onto prophetic intercession, visions or words given, hearing His voice of what to say or do (or not) as we spiritually swam in His murmuring deep.


Adonai said to Moses, “Come up to me on the mountain

and wait there . . . Then Moses went up the mountain,

and the cloud covered the mountain. —Exodus 24:12-15


Key point: Trust God to steady your walk on those faith-led high wire paths. Listen to Him—obedience is birthed out of love for Him . . . and forges a closer relationship with Him.





On May 25, 2009, we’d entered our regular time for intercession via phone. But there was nothing typical about this special God encounter.


We started with worship and praise as individually led.


But then . . . without any of us discussing it or sharing what we were experiencing at that moment, we simultaneously entered a stillness.


Not a word voiced.


His Spirit had fallen over us, silenced us, and impressed on us individually not to speak.


My soul, wait in silence for God alone,

because my hope comes from him.Psalm 62:5(6).


We’d learned from prior group experiences to hear and heed. And now we were taking a mini test.


Would we obey even if we felt the need in the natural to speak or explain? I have to tell you, despite prior learning to follow His lead, my mind still had moments of wondering . . .


Am I the only one hearing this? (Nope, as it turned out.)

Did my phone drop the call? (Not in the least.)

Should I explain what He’s directing me to do? (Nope again . . . this was a faith test for each of us.)


Despite each question I wrestled with in the natural, my soul was at peace with the stillness, marveling at it and sensing things from Him through it. And He assured me, impressing on me to not be concerned about explaining things to the others but to remain silent, still, and wait.


At one point, the Lord highlighted my dog, a sweet-but-feisty English Cocker (Avigail) who was lying calmly at my feet through it all. God was affirming His lesson . . . just relax, trustfully wait, rest in Him, something like the restful devotion my dog was giving me.


At first, I wrestled against natural inclinations and waited (and then waited even more), humbled by His His divine royalty, powerful presence, authority, and love.


Three to three-and-a half hours later . . . He lifted the silence.




We all had remained on the phone in obedient stillness, not knowing what our intercessory partners were thinking, doing, or if they had hung up or given up.


All we had was our personal command for silence before Him. The wrestling through it all was similar, but the lessons may have been different.


Why three plus hours? Don’t know. But what I can share is two things.


We had transitioned into a whole new level.

No longer pitching our tent in the low places.

We were learning (by His grace) to go farther up the mountain.

Closer to Him, deeper in Him, trusting the climb.

Trusting the silence, the unexplainable, the waiting . . .

Obediently resting in His Presence,

in His holy bridal chamber.


HE alone is KING . . . the GREAT I AM.

HE always WAS and always WILL BE.




After the Lord had broken the silence, my intercessory partners immediately asked, “What was that?” and started sharing the experiences and wrestlings they’d had during the wait.


Here’s what God had imparted to me during those hours and what I basically had shared with them:


He is King. K-I-N-G. Yes, we have access to His Holy throne room through our Messiah—but He wanted to take us to another level of His Lordship, majestic royalty . . . not move in presumption.


Similar to ancient days of earthly kingships, He wanted us to bow to His Lordship and obey . . . speaking only when He, the King, directed. And in that time of silently waiting for His nod to speak, we were to rest attentively to hear His voice within our souls.


How does that roll? Well, if you’re willing to surrender to His lead to get your spiritual ears recalibrated, there will be times when He’ll direct you to sit before Him and learn by just being in His Presence.


Other times, He’ll direct you to only worship Him—no prayer lists, not even a deeper-level intercession. But what songs would He like to hear—something honest and spontaneous from your soul, a melody from His heart to yours, or a worship song you often sing?


Or He may not want songs or soulful melodies but instead desire praise and thanksgiving. Or He could lead you into intercession where you’ll speak His Words, often praying from scripture, doing battle on behalf of others, world events, things to come according to what He is showing you.


There will be times for prayer lists/requests/concerns, but He just might want you to set all that aside, trusting that He knows the list, and instead go higher on the mountain, spending that time solely loving on Him.



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[Expanded from a 2009 post about Feasting within the Fast; re-published 2022.]

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Betrayal Within: Moldy Soul Series


Stay tuned for upcoming post: Betrayal. It’s not just what’s done to us. It’s what we do on cloaked and not-so-cloaked levels to others. To ourselves. To God. The betrayal swimming within and without—whenever an action, word, or soul-thought crushes trust and taints spiritual and moral standards.


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Betrayal starts small and then grows invasively. In the heart. In the thoughts and intents of our mind. In the soul. Our moldy soul.


The Betrayal Within series starts by mirroring my earlier Moldy Soul posts (2008-2009, later expanded)—exploring the makings of a moldy soul with some rabbinic thought woven in and searching how that rose to the surface and dismantled certain biblical relationships. Situations and their aftermath mirrored in our lives today.


This revised series turns up the volume a bit on the moldy-soul narrative and digs into full-on betrayal. Its seeds. Its growth. Its cunning. Its nemesis.


Within us, our families/friends—and our relationship with God.




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