Desire Of My Soul

Flashes of Lightning: Utter-Quiet, Hear His Voice, I AM, Trust (Watchwords for 2024)

 

As 2024 stood in the ready, a restless spiritual longing that had been stirring within me for a while surfaced. The eventual calm came with four watchwords God impressed on me—the last one is a command. Here’s what He showed me.

 

“I will take my stand at my watch post and station myself on the tower and look out to see what He will say to me.” —Habakkuk 2:1

 

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READING TIME: 12 MINUTES.

 

WATCHWORD GIVEN: From New Year’s Eve Eve 2023 and the initial moments of January 1, 2024, 12:01 am through God’s appointed third watch (midnight to 3 am).

 

Days before 2024 rolled in, a restlessness brewed within me as I waited for the watchword God would give me during our decades-long New Year’s Eve prayer “date.”

 
 
 

Part of it was a desire—quickening, aching, rising—for something with God, from God, that could not yet be defined—something that existed far beyond what’s been. For you, for me, for all who seek His face.

 

I’ve broken this post into the four intrinsically linked watchwords impressed on me for 2024—the first (lion’s share of the post) sets the course for the other three. I’ve also shared scriptures, some reflections, and my experiences along the way.

 

That said … How God uses this post for your walk is between you and Him, confirmed by His Word.

 

These watchwords themselves aren’t new per se . . . but how He moves in them may well be.

 

And note: they’re not more things to squeeze onto an already crowded, guilt-ridden To-Do list. This is God calling us nearer, birthed from His love and holy desire in this critical prophesy-rich hour.

 

1. Utter-Quiet

2. Hear His Voice

3. I AM

4. Trust [a command]

 

Surrendering to Him more means change is afoot, possibly leading to . . .

 

a redirection

to the unexpected, to a more humbled, childlike re-beginning in Him, the God of beginnings within beginnings

 

a release

from anything veiled under the vast, comfortable umbrella of the common, rote, patterned, sound-bite driven, self-focusing provincial surrounding us and within us

 

a shedding

of whatever the Lord highlights that has to go—like those faltering intents and mental attitude sins that have gone stealth, secreted in the crevices of our minds and souls

 

of any hardness within . . . lethargy, a distracted spirit, compromise and spiritual waning, self-focus, shrouded pretenses, deceit, duplicity of heart, or guile, false motives hidden from others and ourselves

 

a disruption

of what’s been for something more honestly and better aligned with Him . . . a truly consecrated life . . . where daily living is worship in action . . . a breaking up of what was within for a breaking through to His heart . . . the new pouring out to burst the old

 
 

 
 

#1: UTTER-QUIET

 

The spiritual restlessness mentioned earlier in this post had occurred at various times throughout my walk. And similar to the past, it signaled that a shift-and-release is unfolding.

 

But this time, the restlessness cut deeper, broader, begging for a rushing away from the “sound” pollution, the noise storm, crashing against my soul. The daily chatter, mumblings, rumblings. The spiritually intrusive along with the well-meaning busyness of life—even ministry-focused endeavors and beloved biblically-focused broadcasts and the group-immersive resonance of church services/worship, in person or online.

 

My soul sought major relief before the Lord. From other people’s voices. And especially, from my own.

 

We’re the sheep of God’s pasture. And sheep, as I recently learned, change their ear positions when they’re stressed, fearful, in pain, contented, etc.—and they don’t like loud noises. Well, I could relate. Because spiritually, my ears were twitching. The life “noise” around me—even the noise from the rest of the flock—needed quelling. God was calling.

 

I felt like a bruised sheep seeking its shepherd’s refuge, longing for His arms and assurance, His authoritative staff leading me to quieted waters, and His voice—recognizable, comforting, trustworthy—driving back the exhausting sway of the noise storm.

 

Soul desire: to find rest in the tenor of Heaven—the unalterable, unwavering calm riding on the wings of God’s Holy Spirit . . . to sit in my LORD’s utter-quiet.

 

NEW YEAR’S EVE EVE

 

The Lord called me to a special time of our year-end prayer, earlier than usual—the night before New Year’s Eve. Maybe as a kindness to relieve my soul and give it the deep exhale-inhale-exhale it panted for. Maybe to help my sheep-ears get repositioned to standing status again. Or maybe He did it for something else entirely. His lead. Mine to follow.

 

Gentle, low-key worship music—a new-to-me, refreshingly different CD that honored His Name—streamed softly in the background. No other sounds. No other voices. No daily life noise pollution. Only my Bible and journal at the ready next to me.

 

And then, in time, there it was. A stilling, a shushing of my soul.

 

His humbling utter-quiet.

 

All masks drop. His presence real, down-to-the-bone revealing. His holiness, a penetrating truth. The soul, naked before Him.

 

lowly

wordless

awed by His magnitude and might

fear-struck by His profound holiness

repentant

 

And yet, gratitude rises. His grace lifts it higher. His mercies and forgiveness gifted through our Messiah Jesus/Yeshua are overwhelming, unfathomable.

 

As I prayed-journaled, I felt like a sheep-reverted-to-a-lamb. Herded forward to a new beginning. To become like a child again before Him, humbled, leaning on Him, teachable, obedient, trusting, seeking, panting after Him, wide-eyed and filled with wonder.

 

From now and until we’re called home, may we seize our days, hours, moments. May we deep-dive, desiring Him, voyaging to unexplored depths in His utter-quiet.

 

The Lord of Hosts, Him shall you consecrate (sanctify),

He shall be your fear (trembling, holy fear),

He shall be your dread (awe).

He will be a holy place (a sacred place, a sanctuary, a mikdash)

Isaiah 8:13-14a

 
 

 
 

REFLECTIONS:

SITTING/PRAYING IN HIS UTTER-QUIET:

 

(A)

Experiencing His utter-quiet creates a radical change, freeing a believer’s soul from its worn-torn, desolated state.

 

In Genesis 1:1-2, the earth is a ghastly desolation and emptiness. God’s glory moves over the chaotic—the tehom (Hebrew for depths, subterranean waters, even a deep soul-to-soul murmuring). Torah scholar/author Avivah Gottlieb Zornberg suggests God cuts through that deep murmuring—the “primal noise”1 to form a “creative silence,” a clearing for His creation Word to come forth.

 

I sense God’s desire to do that with our desolated souls, our groaning. Cutting through our noise (internal and external) on the subterranean level to usher in His utter-quiet where relationship with Him, authentically knowing Him, honesty before Him, and deep change ignite and grow. A deeper move forward into a spiritual, consecrated lifestyle of regularly forsaking the noise to submerge in His utter-quiet.

 

(B)

A Hebrew word came to mind. It’s found toward the end of the blessing said before studying the words of Torah: la’asok.

 

It means to immerse ourselves in, soak up (as one of my rabbis used to say every Torah study), engage in, engross ourselves in, occupy ourselves with, toil in.

 

That’s what God’s utter-quiet is about. Simply “be” with Him. To sit with Him awhile. To soak up and bask in His loving, mighty presence.

 

In His quiet, our souls are quiet. As the noise within us and the noisy pressures of the world and others fade, He and His Word step forth.

 

And we’re ready to la’asok b’divrei Yeshuatenu—to soak up the words of the God of our Salvation (Psalm 68:19 [20]).

 

John 1:1, 14a

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God,

and the Word was God . . .

and the Word became flesh and dwelt among us.

 
 

 
 

#2: HIS VOICE

 

Right before I opened my eyes around 5 am on New Year’s Eve, I clearly heard this spoken to me:

 

“To hear his voice, go deeper into worship.”

 

This isn’t about singing louder, cranking up the volume, wildly dancing, or gathering 100 of your closest friends for a worship fest in the backyard—as wonderful as all of that would be.

 

Going deeper in worship (in this context) is birthed within His utter-quiet presence. Wooed and radically amazed by His character and might. Overtaken by Him. Consumed by Him. His being. His holiness. His gentleness.

 

Your soul bows down. It may weep at His beauty, majesty, grace. But it can no longer be silent. It must speak out, sing out, cry out His Name, praise Him . . . because we were created for His glory (honor), called by His Name, formed to declare His praise (Isaiah 43:7, 21).

 

Words adoring Him seep out from meek crevices in your soul and stream from your lips. They can be said, they can be sung, they can be whispered, they can be exuberantly shouted. Overcome by His weighty presence, even your body might not be still.

 

That level of worship becomes a sweet offering carried by a fiery, unquenchable, indestructible passion for Him. A dance of your two souls binding together. Ascending higher in Him to new depths and breadths, climbing the rungs of Jacob’s ladder, that Heaven-and-Earth connection in Jesus/Yeshua, you join the voices of Heaven . . .

 

Holy, Holy, Holy is the LORD GOD ALMIGHTY, who was, and who is, and who is to come.

 

In that stillness of soul, that deeper worship level, your spiritual being is sensitized, nurtured, corrected, encouraged, a repository where God can release new or greater insight and understanding.

 

Walking in it. Worshiping deeper flows from the utter-quiet out to your day-to-day life, into all that you do: laundry, your job, cleaning the house, caring for family members (human and furry ones), helping others, going the extra mile, waiting in line, etc.

 

Your soul carries the calm and understanding gleaned from the utter-quiet so your life becomes humble worship before Him, before others. Because with every breath, it’s about Him, it’s about Him, it’s about Him. Breathing Him in, exhaling Him out to the world.

 

I am my beloved’s and my beloved is mine.

Ani l’dodi v’dodi li’

אני לדודי ודודי לי

 

Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men,

knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward.

You are serving the Lord Messiah.

Colossians 3:23-24

 
 

 
 

#3: I AM

#4: TRUST [a command]

 

New Year’s eve with the Lord began with His addressing a recent, spiritually sorrowful upset in our family.

 

NOTE: What the Lord impressed on me is relevant to all of us, whatever situations we face or will be facing going forward.
 

About a month prior, an in-law went rogue. Prodigal. And that forced a heart-wrenching rift in their marriage. My soul reeled, aching first and foremost for my immediate family member experiencing it . . . but also for the one causing the pain, blinded by what they’ve done.

 

No matter how many times I’d asked the Lord if I could call, text, whatever, His answer was the same: a flat no.

 

But my soul was wrecked. I’d gone prodigal in my earlier adult years in the Lord—nearly 50 years ago—and the pain of that still stings.

 

So I kept petitioning Him: “Lord, someone has to speak to this person. They need help. They need to see spiritually what they’ve done and where they’re headed. Please, send someone. Who will go?”

 

And bam! Just like that, God had these words looming taller than me and BOLDLY LARGE before me, appearing like this:

 

I

AM

 

This wasn’t God merely saying, “Hey, I’ve got it covered.”

 

He was conveying much more, wanting me—and all of us—to more fully, deeply embrace and more firmly stand expectantly on His Name which we know reveals His character:

 

I AM the Great One. I AM the Mighty One.

I AM the GREAT I AM.

And I and I alone will be doing this.

I AM.

 

Only I AM can move into the heart. Only I AM can send His Spirit to convict and counsel the soul.

 

In Isaiah 45, He declares: I AM the LORD and there is no other . . . I, the LORD, speak righteousness . . . There is no other God besides Me . . . A just God and a Savior.

 

Immediately, the Lord hung another word—a command—also tall and BOLDLY LARGE looming before me. It was so spiritual that it became somewhat physical . . . I had to lean back a bit to avoid nearly “bumping” into it as I tried to sit down on my sofa, grasping what He was doing. That’s how real and palatable it was.

 

TRUST

 

His command meant: TRUST the GREAT I AM.

Trust in His character, His love, His long, long, long-suffering.

TRUST His timing. Don’t jump ahead.

Don’t lean away . . . doing a “little” something to help out.

TRUST the GREAT I AM.

 

There’s a difference between faith (אמונה, emunah) and trust (בִּטָּחוֹן, bitachon): Believing God exists is faith. But trust is having the certainty, the confidence, that God is “involved in events and that their outcome accords with His will,” as The Stone Edition of the Chumash (Torah) puts it.

 

For me, trust is walking on a high-wire with no visible net, putting my faith (emunah) in the GREAT I AM (who is my net).

 

May we grow closer to Him in this hour of biblical prophetic history . . . growing in His love and bearing His NAME to a lost world.

 

1. Run to Him in His utter-quiet.

2. Go deeper in worship to Hear His Voice.

3. Fix your eyes on the GREAT I AM.

4. Walk in His command . . . TRUST the GREAT I AM.

 
 

REFERENCES & RESOURCES

1. The Murmuring Deep, Avivah Gottlieb Zornberg. Schocken Books, New York, 2009

2. The Stone Edition of the Chumash (Parasha Vayeishev, Genesis 37-40:23, pg 221)

 
 

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Let the battle commence. Intercessory prayer is strategic warring in the spiritual. Seeking God’s face. Seeking His will, direction. Waiting to hear His voice and heart so we know how to pray.

 

I waited expectantly, patiently for the Lord;

until He reached down to me and heard my cry. —Psalm 40:1

 
 

January 8, 2024

11 Listings/Prayer Requests

 

Adonai, we join David in the words of his Psalm 40: “How much you have done, my God! Your wonders and your thoughts toward us—none can compare with you.”

 

We bow down to you in gratitude, in humility, seeking your presence in these many requests . . . pierce the darkness, breathe hope and encouragement, release healing and answers, cover us with your wisdom, clarity, and discernment in this late hour we’re in. We intercede on behalf of these listed below in the precious, life-changing, life-giving Name Above All Names, Jesus, our Messiah.

 

Serene

A lovely 81-year-old believer in Jesus seeking His help with fiscal stability, health, direction. She’s doggedly working three part-time jobs and still struggling. Praying God sends the ministry of healing in all levels along with warring angels to supply all her needs in every area of her life for His glory.

 

Donny Davis

He’s in the hospital with a blood infection, bladder infection, and kidney infection. Father, speak to the minds and hearts of the doctors to know which medication to use . . . but please step in supernaturally to bring total healing and the salvation message in a way that penetrates Donny’s soul, mind, body for physical and spiritual recovery.

 

Miss Jessee

Abba, let wisdom with discretion fall down upon her like holy rain from your throne. Help her hear your voice in new ways and follow you, not veering off course or leaning to her own understanding. Release the resources to enable her to move forward on this unique journey of yours, canceling demonic assignments and interference so she remains in sync with you on every level.

 

Cody

We cry for mercy. Cody is suffering from a serious condition with his hands making it difficult for him to do his job at times. Also, may his soul hunger for and receive Jesus, our Messiah.

 

Lisa

It’s been a long journey finding work. Thank you, Lord, for the gifts and skills you’ve given your daughter Lisa. As she waits expectantly, faithfully, humbly before you, let your will arise and your perfect ways beam forth like the noon-day sun, blessing her at every turn.

 

Carmella & family

Carm is struggling with health issues of her own plus her entire family—every one of her many brothers are ill; one is quite ill with stage 4 cancer. And her brother-in-law (Tom) just got diagnosed with acute myeloid leukemia (six weeks of aggressive treatment needed)—and her spouse (Gary) has heart valve issues. Mighty, Glorious King, our Great Healer and Restorer, please cover Carmella and her family with your steadfast love, continual presence, releasing encouragement to these whose hearts have experienced hope deferred along this rugged road. May they be comforted by your Holy Spirit and draw closer to you.

 

Will

How marvelous you are, Lord! Blessing this brother and his wife with an unexpected pregnancy—twin boys! They’ve had only girls prior. May his wife find rest, healing, and carry them well in full-term for your glory. And may these sons be carriers of your presence all the days of their lives, telling many of your ways, greatness, and salvation through Jesus.

 

Gene & Toni

My Uncle Gene and my dear sister in the Lord (Toni) need God’s covering. Both are having possible colon issues. El Shaddai, our Mighty God, may you direct the physicians, diagnostics, and outcomes for complete healing so your Name is lifted up and Gene and Toni are blessed.

 

K.M.

Walk with your daughter, sweet King. Put your arms around her, teach her, lead her, heal her physically, emotionally, spiritually as she braves through a divorce stirred by her spouse’s emotional and then physical infidelity. Let her know you in new ways that she may walk even closer to you than before as you bring spiritual beauty from these painful ashes.

 

Chris

Abba, your eye is everywhere . . . on the rulers of the earth and the poor. You see the hard work this homeless man does. Bless him. Have mercy on him. Heal his body, mind, and soul and bring stability to him through Your Powerful Name, for you are God our Provider. You and no other.

 

Leslie

Flood her life’s walkway with your Holy Spirit. Cover her with your wisdom and discernment as she maneuvers the legalities of child custody and a divorce. Please, Adonai, keep all facets of this process from causing anguish to their six-year-old daughter. May your NAME and ways REIGN through all of this.

 

God is unwavering. He is with us through the wastelands, the wilderness, the lofty places, the murky waters. Teach us and gather us near to you, Lord.

Adonai is the one who saves the righteous.

He is their stronghold in times of trouble.

He saves them because they take refuge in him.

Psalm 37:39,40b

 
 
 

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